With three weeks to go in my second pregnancy the finish line is hanging around somewhere.
There are times when I am feeling positive and the finish line is as clear as anything and straight ahead. Then there are times where the finish line seems so far away, so unreachable, with obstacles galore and I just want to cry!

This pregnancy has been every bit different from my first.
I never got to the stage where I wanted it to be over, and could never understand when women were whinging all the time about wanting it “out now!” I used to think, ‘What? Why would you wish this away?’
I could understand the need and want to have your baby here now to cuddle and nurture and to know that everything was all right, but never the physical strain and desperate desire to have the pregnancy done with.

Well, I get it now. Baby number two is ginormous! I am humongous! And, I think I would actually get more sleep more with him/her here than the 4 hours a night I’m averaging now.

I am trying a natural birth this time – a ‘trial of scar’ or VBAC. This makes my obstetrician laugh his butt off every time I see him and makes me want to hit him every time I see him. That’s why I only see him every now and then and am in the care of midwives instead this time around!
After checking my tummy height he shrieks, “It’s a whopper!” and he can’t believe I would still opt for a normal birth. He explains every time I see him that I must go into labour naturally. As soon as I’m induced or there are complications, another c-section will be the result.

Last week I asked him (because I just want the baby out and because I want my natural birth) how I can get the baby out sooner – “Come on, there must be some tricks of the trade you can give me!”
He recommended bathing in curry powder (what???), having lots of sex (my husband was thrilled until he saw my face), and keeping active (Active? I have to roll around like a walrus just to get out of bed!).

So, I have decided to give the curry a miss. Instead I’m trying my hardest to remain positive as the finish line is far clearer that way, and to just continue praying for a healthy baby – no matter how and when it comes into this world.

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