Losing my mind.

November 29, 2007

I must start with an apology as it has been a long time between posts. I have been a little reticent to post because I think I am losing my mind.  I know that there is such a thing as pregnancy brain but never did I think that it could get this bad. I went to put Husband’s work bag away and found myself with it in the laundry when it clearly belonged in the study. I forget names all the time, even people that have been part of my life all of my life. I had to fill out the names on the scoreboard at netball, it took what seemed to be fifteen minutes to recall the first and last names of seven people.

It honestly scares me to see the deterioration of my mental faculties. I have always prided myself on my intellectual ability, oh how the mighty have fallen, now I can’t even remember how to pronounce words properly. Other people haven’t realised yet how incompetent I am becoming and are having serious conversations with me or having me organise events and inside I am stressing big time because I can’t follow or make a simple argument let alone handle the logistics of an event. I hope this all makes sense although I wouldn’t be surprised if it doesn’t. Just a quick question, post-natally my brain goes back to normal doesn’t it?

2 Responses to “Losing my mind.”

  1. oh boy, I so know what you are talking about! I am always thinking ‘but I’m smart…why do I need to use the calculator on my phone to add up how much I just spent, why do I stare at it blankly after finding it on my phone and try to figure out what i need to do to work out how much I have left to spend (true story), why don’t i have a clue what this person is talking about, and, the big one, what DID i do yesterday???’
    Given that I am no longer pregnant, I’m calling this ‘mummy brain’ and am hoping that I return to my original intelligence when I get full nights sleep or stop breast-feeding…
    It does scare me though that some older women I know warned me when this brain fog started that you never quite return to how you were before…I’m hoping for a new and better kind of normal…
    So don’t worry….or do…but at least you’re in great company!

  2. this made me laugh… especially reading it this afternoon after you nearly drove off with a plate on your car bonnet!

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